Monday, April 27, 2009
Am gonna write this while I am still numb.
We lost our little bubble tonight.
Our baby hasn't grown since the last scan. Her heart beat is less than 30. Dr Yash asked us if we would like to terminate now or wait until bubble leaves naturally without intervention.
Dr Yash is running the tests again just to make sure. We will make a decision after getting the results. Mrs C is sad. I will write to her to let her know of our gratitude and our love for her.
I am so very calm. The calm before the storm I suspect. Bob has been angry, now he is calm. There is nothing and no-one to be angry at. We cry, but not with the heart, there are just tears leaking from our eyes, tears running down our faces, tears we can't stop. Yet we haven't started crying.
The grief will hit us later I guess.
Bubble: I love you so very much. I feel you with me as strongly as ever. This is not the end. You are going to be with Kelsey, she will care of you until you return.
Posted by Phoenix at 10:19 PM