Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Karyotyping results in ... it's a boy.
I have opened our blog. I have had it closed during the past month or so while we have been grieving, angry, devastated and forced to continue the fight. We thank everyone we trusted to read what has really been going on, as we know you don't judge us. We have also removed the comments from those who said things they may not have wanted to say while no-one else was reading, for your own security.
Tonight we received an email from someone called "Ravi" on behalf of Surrogacy India. Who the fuck is Ravi? "Ravi" (not his fault) sent us the karyotyping results of bubble.
Why could we not have received this so very important information from our previous best mates at SI - Dr Sudhir and Dr Yashodhara. Too busy courting new clients we guess.
Bubble was - is - and will always be - our little boy. And our bubble boy tested genetically normal.
What more can I say? All the scary betas, the scary scans, the low amnio results, the small growth ... the crap results we got via phone from Dr Yash, that never matched up with the actual results uploaded to our google website ... the promises of testing, the promises of repeat testing, the calls to say bubble had a high chance of trisomy 21 and trisomy 18, of which test results proved to not concur with what we were told on the phone ... bubble was genetically okay ... and that gives us great relief. However, we also feel rather bittersweet because we wonder what happened? And we don't even question this. Why bother, we will never get an answer. It simply is. These things happen. And we have moved on.
All I can say tonight, while it sinks in, is that we love you bubble.
PS. Thursday. We have named him Nicholas.
Posted by Phoenix at 11:39 PM