Rani went into hospital this morning and meds have started to induce her labour. Not a lot has happened, no real contractions, just a few twinges. She is all hooked up and being well cared for. Dr Shivani said she would update us in the morning, she is not expecting anything to happen overnight.
Dr Malik is our OBGYN. She will call if anything happens. All the phones are on and I am wide awake. I slept this afternoon, and doubt I will get much more sleep before baby is born. I can't get any deep sleep, I lie on the bed with my heart thump thump thumping, and my stomach doing butterfly leaps.
I'm not really sure how I feel. I seem to have numbed out the past few days, and I don't really feel anything. Sure, I want this to happen and I am little excited. But I have this inbuilt, prehaps protection, mechanism where whenever anything profound happens I shut down emotionally and go through the motions, doing what I have to do, without feeling too much.
I am thinking more about Rani than baby. It still feels like someone else's baby is being born, and I keep having images of Rani lying on an unfamiliar bed, being in pain. Her husband is at the hospital wither her. I want to go up and sit with her, but I doubt I would do any good, and may just make things more pressured and uncomfortable for Rani. I hope Dr Malik gives her some good drugs if she needs them, and that she enjoys them if she can. I would swap places with her in a heartbeat.
No, it has in no way even started to sink in what is about to happen., That is where my fear comes from, I am not emotionally ready for this, or feeling much at all other than worry about Rani. I am going to the hospital in the morning and hopefully I can spend some time with her, if it's okay with her.
It's 11.35pm here in Delhi, sleep is so very far away, and I have started pacing. Bob wants to go to the hospital, but there is no point, we would just be sitting outside in a hallway. This is tough.
Kara - can you email me please, I don't have your email addy here in Delhi.
Midnight update: we are having our baby TODAY!!!
Dr Shivani just phoned. Rani is having mild contractions. We can go to the hospital anytime we like. She will not get a lot of sleep tonight becuase of the contractions. If things get too much for her they will give her an epidural which will allow her to walk. She is pacing, God I feel awful for her. What an incredible woman doing this for us. I don't know if I would be any use to her. Her sister (also a pregnant surrogate) husband and children have been with her tonight, they have now gone home. Maybe we will go up. What to do. Dr Shivani just saw Rani and she is almost in tears because she loves being part of the SCI team and having visits with everyone, and now it is nearly all over. The door is always open for her. Do we stay and try and get some sleep or do we go? I don't want to be in the way.
2am update: No new news
This is Bob. Megan has crashed. I am still up, holding the fort. Late night television is my friend; infomercials and SpongeBob SquarePants dubbed in Hindi.
All the cameras and phones are charged, and the mobile has been linked to the blog so that photos can be posted hot off the press from Phoenix.
I think we will head off to the hospital at first light.
7.30am update More no new news
Bob has finally crashed. I guess he won't be heading off to the hospital at first light. I am on now on high alert duty. I hardly slept, one ear was tuned in to hear the phone that didn't ring. I freel exhausted, but surprisingly okay. I'll bet poor Rani is not as chipper as me this morning. Dr Shivani is calling at 9am with an update. Think I will go harrass Shilpi and ask her to take me out to get paper for the gifts we bought Rani, and a big card.
9:15am update: We are off to hospital!!!
The baby is coming in the next hour!!!